Two faces of loneliness

Loneliness ...

It is more than a word to me. I never had any good relationship with anyone else other than loneliness. Its more than a human to me. May be you are part of many relationships in this world. Each relationship expects something in return from you. In each relationship one has to give something to relationship. And of course each relationship is not available whenever you need, frankly speaking one may have very few relationships which can be counted on fingers those are available whenever one is in need.

But, Loneliness ... the reliable and dependable. You never regret because of your relationship with loneliness. This is the relationship that comes to you whenever you feel a need that is either for your rescue or even for your destruction. Yes .. it is having two faces.

My journey in the land of no hope

"My journey in the land of no hope" ... Now it sounds funny to me. Let me explain this.

I consider myself among those people, who will give more importance to the journey towards goal rather than end achievement. In simple words I believe in journey and the happiness it gives rather than end achievement. So, it is always good to take the log of events happened and the experiences you learned in your journey. Or else you can define achievement as the combination of your experiences and final outcome. And always remember, most of the times the final outcomes part in the achievement is less than 10% (some hand picked number to say its nothing). The final outcome may or may not be as expected by you, but its nothing in front of whatever you learned in your journey towards that achievement and you are no more the same person who started the journey. And always remember and believe that if the outcome is not as expected by you, then it may not be your expected goal or something else which is better than this is waiting for you and your inner self already knows that you deserve something better than this and it is waiting for you to realize. So never give up.

Success -- Failure -- loosers

Finally we are at work ...

With few exceptions, all ready to give their best towards company which is in our dreams till now. I expected only 20% effort from all other members but amazingly I am getting more response than that. I hope the same thing will be continued until we launch our first product.

I heard many times, we need to know either we working for success or failure. This time I don't want to follow this statement. We just work. yes we just work. Let the time to decide either we are failure or success. I believe reaching failure is as hard as success, if we don't consider dropping the work in middle as failure.

Success brings confidence, but failure strenthens confidence. Dropping the work in the middle is death. That is the life of looser. At least once in a day he dies. I spent enough of life as a looser, that is either because of my own mistakes or by living others life.

The Death

When finally death comes to you, how it feels like? Before my grand fathers death, answer to this question was either I don't know or I don't care. Its not that before his(My grandpas) death, I never witnessed the death, but that is the first time I saw a person who was afraid not because of death, but because of the idea of leaving beloved ones.

I don't know why I never experienced that kind of attachment towards anybody and I always felt thats Me. Unique. Without feelings. Even my mind or my heart whatever you people say is always ready to accept death at any time either with or without reason. But when I saw for the first time in the eyes of my grandpaa... his strong wish to live with the beloved ones, first time I felt, why don't I live for some purpose (Anyway still I don't have any kind of emotions) that will force me to live. Yes now I got at last purpose to live ... not exactly right now making searching for purpose as my purpose ;)